I have not been having the greatest week. Even though I've had these couple of days off to myself I feel like I didn't get anything accomplished. And when I feel that way I am way too hard on myself. I missed birthday parties, BBQ's and other events that I wanted to attended but just couldn't get out of my warp. I am so caught up in my own aspect on how I want my life to be in the future that I neglect everyone and everything else. The feeling of wanting something so bad is pernicious that it feels like a dream. Days go, weeks fly, and you look at the calendar and realize it's friggin September. I need to get my $^*% together.